Saturday, July 26, 2008

This Sunday I am not only giving a talk at church, but I am also teaching a lesson. I have the lesson done, but I haven't started the talk. How do you give a talk on a talk??? Especially the short one that i have on tithing. Life is awesome. I realized something about Jesse that makes my heart flutter even more. I always wanted to marry a guy who was very respectful of church leaders. I went to institute with Jesse and he stayed after to help clean up all the books and chairs and put them away. Then he went up to the teacher and talked with him further. Suddenly I realized, this boy is a much much better Mormon than I have ever been. He puts his whole heart and soul into every lesson and gets so excited about his calling as a ward missionary. Heavens to betsy I can't even remember when my home teachers are coming over even when I planned my whole day around it. Hes a great guy. Its been an interesting road. We've been looking for furniture and I have a lot of the color schemes I want picked out. Too bad we can only afford walmart furniture. this next month I will be paying for both apartments and on top of that my security deposit leaving me with no money. I will have two apartments though wahoo, what else could I want?? Yes it kind of sucks.
So weird thing last night, someone called me at one in the morning and so I had my phone in my hand when I woke up this morning, but I never answered the call. I was really confused when I woke up.
Good news I found vitawater that doesn't taste like cough syrup, it is the lemonade one. I wonder if you are supposed to refrigerate after opening????
Well I am still waiting for my ring, wow it sucks waiting for money to come. Everyone else knows what it looks like except me. Wow I am such a brat.
I had an interview this week and i think I really sucked it up. There were five people asking questions and I'm pretty sure that I would forget to answer the whole question because I would get so nervous in the middle of it that I would forget what I was even saying. So that was fun, especially since my boss was in the room too. blah.
Jesse already got a raise and is making more money than me after one day at his job. . I"m glad someone is making money even without his bachelors degree. How pathetic! Well I beter get back to something that I was doing

Tuesday, July 22, 2008


All I have to say is, how the hey am I still finding new old coldplay songs that I love with every fiber of my being. The one i found this week is Sparks. I don't get how I have never even realized how many good songs I don't realize are out there of coldplay. They always come one at a time never all at once. I had a horrendous day today. This is the first time that I have been able to sit down all day. I started the day by going to work at eight, then I had an interview (oh how i hate them), then I signed up for an apartment ( I was tossing and turning about this all night -MARRIAGE- oh what horror and hell), then i went back to work which I only ended up working half the day, then I went to my other job for training and ended up having to stay, I took a client to his doctors anointment, and finally now for this brief interval of 10 minutes do I get to sit down. Now i have to leave. Why I just want to sit in the air conditioning and listen to Bob Marley and wonder what i was thinking when I signed my life away literally or figuratively. Well guess I should go ahhhhh.
By the way anyone who really knows me should know I impose this upon myself, so don't ever ever feel sorry for me.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

I am starting this blog because I hope that I can work out my deeply rooted problems through exploring my inner self (ha ha yeah right, it would take a lot more than that). Mostly I just want to keep in touch with my sweetness Krystal and my darling dearest Dara and whoever else feels like reading this deeply torturing blog. I have been working a lot!!! In order to fill the void of school I have begun to work 40-50 hours a week. Nothing keeps me more entertained than working at Wasatch Mental Health. I have finally found home, it especially makes me miss my mother. Please don't take that the wrong way, its only as screwed up as you can imagine. Well getting married has also been a focus and burden of my strength. I've decided to just move into the apartment that Jesse and I will live in when we get married. Yes I said it, when we get married. He is getting ordained a priest this Sunday and will be getting his Melchezidik priesthood in the next three to four months, thus placing us back on the November track. I think I"m mostly in it so I don't have to deal with anymore nasty room mates. I would have my own apartment for three months, oh baby i'm excited.
My brother Mike, his wife and four children were in town for the fourth of july. It was honestly the first time I have had so much fun with my brother. We double dated and went to Lagoon, it was so fun. I realized that I am not ready for a toddler because I watched my sweet little niece Cassidy for the fourth and well it was hard hard work. Three year olds are emotionally unbalanced, even more than I am. It was fun though. I also got to watch my nephew who is a baby and that was really easy and fun.
I like my ward a lot right now. I am the relief society teacher and I've never had so much fun with a calling. It forces me to be social.
OH on a side note I saw Les mIserables as a play for an activity with the clients at Wasatch. I started crying at the beginning as thought about the book. It was kind of sad especially considering kids were putting on the play and most of them couldn't sing. I won serious brownie points with my boss for planning that activity.
Second side note which is mostly for Krystal - I was at Liberty square pool and I saw Jason Okinaka, my old home teacher from freshmen year. We were talking about people we still keep in touch with and I brought up Krystal and he made a comment how she has the most amazing eyes and he loved to look into them, so I made a comment of yeah I know what you mean I get lost in them too. The conversation ended shortly after that. I really couldn't resist saying that. I have way too many guys always telling me how hot Krystal is. When I really think about it, I think some jealousy might have played into my frustrations with her sophomore year. So I'm sorry Krystal.
I had a sad dream that my dad died and the whole time I was wishing that I talked to him more, well I'm going to call him.

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